hello 09 ...

i'm back people with a little cold and fever. *sloppy*

well, well, well...look who's here? *i have not been around much lately = lazy :))* i know.

it's 2009! * was a bit left out, this was supposed to be out a week ago but again, i was lazy as apop *.

the year of the ox is here. pheuwwww, time flies so fast. *aku rase nak pengsan*. I don't know much of anything about the chinese horoscopes. therefore, i did some digging.

and then!

they said, it's going to be a prosperous year for us. ok, i say, insyallah. smoga tahun ini lebih bermakne dan lebih baik. Semoga Allah juga akan memakbulkan doa-doaku, insyaallah.

frankly, i do not know what exactly is playing in my head as this month fades. *tipu, ada satu perkara :)* i am not also sure whether i have changed. *yet* hmmm'mmm. those azams 'resolutions' i listed out last year? my wants, my needs, haih. seko pon tak jalan. *marriage was not one of them, trust me* hmm was it, trust me or believe me? correct me if i'm wrong.

one thing for sure is, each year, the only one thing that i'd do is to hope. hoping those could be realised. *usehe tadek pon tak iyer jugak kalao dok hope saje*

i guess, my view of new year's resolutions has changed or probably i do not have any of them? *sigh*. no longer do i sit down on the eve of the new year thinking or make a list though i do actually spend some time dreaming as the days fade. heh. *just like i love this one of the everly bros songs so much*

angan2 minah jenin = resolusi ?

nak diikotkan, semakin kita meningkat dewasa setiap tahun, selagi itu la sme kemahuan, keperluan, kehendak akan berubah2 jugak. i hope i will be paying close attention to *eventhough aunty rachah advises me not* ... whatever that means :) this year.

so, here's to a brand new year jUnie, may you wake up to many delightful surprises this year round. Insyaallah.

hmm...last weekend was full of tiny surprises :)). later lah.

signing off!

ps: For last year's words belong to last year's language And next year's words await another voice. And to make an end is to make a beginning. - T.S. Eliot 'Little Gidding'.

31st selamat pagi ...

Sleeping schedule ...

I couldnt sleep these past few days. dah lama jugak tak ada masalah tidur tak menentu ni. J memang aku banyak habiskan masa online lewat malam sejak kebelakangan ni. Buat apa tah. Merepek dengan linda? Tak stiap malam rasanya. Selalunya, i will tuck myself to bed mostly at 10pm on the weekdays. My eight hours of sleep is very important. Ia akan terbawa-bawa kalau satu hari terlewat tido. Aku akan susah nak tidur malam kemudiannya. Dan terus tak tidur langsung. Macam sekarang he he. It’s happening again J. Susah hati mungkin? It was a tough week. Menguruskan emosi yang tak stabil nih bukannya mudah. He he.

Wedding ...

I went to a friend’s wedding yesterday. As promised. I didnt have any clue where taman nirwana, ampang is. I managed to get there somehow, thanks yusry honey. I met few friends there. I was glad to be there, glad that everything went well with us. Aku berterima kasih pada diri aku yang semakin hari semakin dewasa menangani masalah. *puji diri sendrik* he he. Ye ke matang dengan cara itu semua?. Ye la kot. Aku cuba sebaik mungkin untuk mempositifkan diri ni. Tah la ape jadi ngan aku skg, kalau aku masih suraya yang dulu. *gelakbiasa-biasa je* la la la. Thought of bringing yusry along. Hmm, i didnt want to trouble him. Duduk jauh dah tu. Bro, sape ckp aku tak penah nak ajak?

Exhausted ...

Yusry text me on my way home dari kenduri. I was really tired la la muchuk. Aku tidur. Thanks ko ajak aku kuar stiap minggu. Ko dah tak macam dulu la, so expensive. Hmmm...nanti kita dating la k. It is just that, mase tak kena la. Ha ha yang tak kene tu ialah masa aku.

I made something special for you bro ... jeng jeng jeng. Kalo peka la ko tu...kalao tak wat penat aku

Nanti gambar kawen tu siap, i put some of our shots here *wink* - ckp sal gambar kawen, gambar kenduri senawang pon tak siap lagi hihi

Sick ...

He is sick. Demam n cold. You know la how sick people can be. I dont want to talk about him. It’s not making me any better. Well, im sick of listening the word ‘menghukum’ coming out from his mouth.

So much for 2007. So what’s next? Is 2008 really for me? i have been counting the days since my last post - shit happens?

Home ...

I’m still frustrated. I have stopped cooking and talking. Mmg practice makes perfect. Masak salah tak masak pon salah. Tak payah la masak ok buat mase sekarang. Kasi pocket money – they can have what ever they like. Aku pon tak beselera sangat dah mcm dua minggu lepas. Tanda nya aku dah period la tu he he. Today is my first day. Moody baby *ahaks*

Internet ...

So the whole day i am with this notebook. On line 24hrs? Ha ha. Yup. Lame nyer tak online mcm ni. Im still thinkin of a name for it J. Online la kalao dah susah sgt nak tido. Since every soul in the house knows i’m shutting down, sape nak bising kalao aku pakai internet kan. Kalau tak, aku mengalah. Tanye linda kan babe. Hmm. But it’s not about the internet.

Sometimes, a sister can be a friend, a listener, a shoulder to cry upon to. At times, she needs to be a sister and not friend. *i surely can be both, sister & friend*. All i need is just lil bit of respect. Believe me, there is a beast in me. it hurts whenever i get upset. no matter how sad i will be...

T-N-F

they always bloom in heart

I have learned something – being a home maker is not EASY as you may think. Memerlukan banyak kesabaran lol

3-4 jam tadi, aku ngadap tv. I’m not a tv person. Tapi kalao CSI, Sunday la yang ditunggu.

Posts ...

Peluang macam hari ni, tak selalu ada. So aku godek2 la draft posts aku sempena nak menutup tirai 2007 ni. Manyak nyer. azam konon nak post sme before new year. Kadang – kadang buat separuh jalan. Tak bagus kan buat kerja separuh-separuh macam tu. So rasanya sme nye dah di post. ada la satu dua yang tidak. Kisah di muara tu, kalau korang ingat. I post it in my heart la. I dont want to make it any worst dengan subject itu ha ha ie the person.

You, i love you. Walaupon kita dah tak bersama lagi. I am just glad that we are friends till now. Thanks najib. Smenye tak sempat kan thanks to me. forgive me for my wrongdoings. I thank you for the great memories. Remember our deal recently, saban hari sue terfikirkan tentang tu. Can i withdraw? Sue tak sedap hati dengan apa yang dah kita rancangkan tempoh hari. I feel bad.

New blog account ...

Ari tu bincang dgn linda ha ha. Skian, terima kasih. itu jer. Saspen tak? Ha ha ha

New year ...

Sehari lagi kan nak tahun baru, oh 2008. Im here sitting on my bed sejak dari pagi tadi sampai la skg 5.38 am. Tak makan tak minum. Senang je nak kurus linda oii. Haha. Frust!. Tunjok la lengan ke ape ke ko nak tunjok tu he he. Bluwekkkkk. Rasanya i have no plan for new year’s eve. Biasa la dua tiga taun ni pon. Aku tak ke mane mane. Tido rasenyer. Sms yusry tadi tapi dah mlm baru nak jawab. Kalao aku tu, dah ckp mcm mcm dah.

Yusry : tgk bunge api tak?
Subor : x
Yusry : peh ...’x’ jer ..perghhh
Subor : aku tade mood. Piyed kot. Tak gi mane pon satu hari ni. Kat umah jer. Nu yer pon tade plan. Losernya
Subor : lain kali belajar la ajak orang lain pulak ..jgn tunggu diajak saja
Subor : ye laaa
Yusry : tengok tuu
Subor : tak nampak ... ko wakpe
Yusry : aku ngan sue adik ...ko wat pe
Subor : nak tidur ...

*tapi aku tak tido pon*

Pedih nyer mate ni

seSpecial gofwen ...

ironist

Yesterday, she posted something. Something about sesuatu sedua so ape tah. Budak giler. I think it was very sweet of her. *kembang ithong* Posting such entry. Babe, thanks. Aku suka kalao ko suka apa yg aku kasi tu. Ape yg aku merepek tu sebenarnya aku merepek la joyah. Aku tak buat entry birthday ko la taun nih. Aku sabot plak nak collage pe sme. Picasa senang je. Tapi NIAT tu penting keh la la *alasan basi aku* tapi aku selamat heheh senang jer ngan lindosh ni. Human touch is all i need to fly her away ha ha ha.

Joy + yah = kami *ko mmg btol 100 pratos* aku 40 pesen jer ko la 60 pesen tu *gelak setan*

Aku ttp merasekan, sebenarnya smenye sbb hp tu yg jadikan ia sehebat, sedua setiga konon la la la setakat barang tu sepit sme .. ape ade kot. *bunyian kejelesan* kekeke. I am happy ko menutup tirai 07 dgn happy ending.

Aku teharu juga ...

p/s : weekend aku ........ mcm tu la bunyik nyer ha ha *tawa dalam tangisan* - busuk plak mulut aku tak bckp satu hari ni ha ha ha. Tegolek golek atas tilam macam anak lembu *teringat epy yang katenye sebok begolek jadi anak gajah* ape saje la ko neh!

Apa la agaknya azam aku tahun baru nanti yeh ememmememe ...*akuadabanyakurusanhariinih - dan aku tak tido la ase nyer*