yesterday,

i couldnt sleep at all. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
went downstairs to get something to drink.
i laid back. sstil mate besinar2. :P

tried to finish my book.
managed to get just a couple of pages.
sighed.
apop tido mati. aku tensen!
so, aku lipat pakaian aku pd jam 4 pagi
dan ape ape yg patot sehingga la ke pagi
amin.

yep, tak tido :P


last saturyday,
finally, we met. :))

mcm wat blind date pulak.
its nothing wrong to meet an old friend. right?
how about an exbf? LOL.
stubborn leorian!
well ... yaddi yaddi yadda


ucuk cowie, i changed my mind.
i was supposed to meet dak ucuk n the bunch for a movie.
i invited anab to join us just to make sure i didnt miss both :p
die sgt laaaaaaaaaaaaaaa lambat
so we missed it.
"go ahead u guys! im going to OU lah."


lain kali men men la sms sms berjam jam yeh yam?
tp nk capai kate sepakat, haram :P
when i arrived there, he was no where to be seen.
kemponan aku tak dpt mkn kat mardigras.


rupe2nye die kat umah laie. :((.
nak nangeh ase nye. sedihnye :P
smp ati wat oang cm neh. *sobs*
tekejot die bile tau aku dah sampai haa.
twoih tepon :P.
ya ya ya ya ya, i had to wait for another 30 mins

we had dinner at hartamas sq for a change.
Aku kan jenih senyom sampai tengkok.
kalao dah kene tang spot yg btoi kekeke

talking about a whiplash emotions !
what can i say, i was very happy seeing him that night.
i didnt think of anything else. a n y t h i ng at all. :D
bukankah aku merajok ?
sbb tunggu di dpn Ou tu segituh?
tapi tak.

tahh...ilang sme sme nyer. * senyom *


it has been 2 years since i have had that kind of moment
where i can talk about anything, laugh about everything
with the persoN i am comfortable with
nape la aku rase nak nangeh pulak neh! arghh

bola pon tengok kite orang mlm tuh.
tp aku tengok la jgk. :)
sampai jam 5 pagi :)
i wasnt sleepy at all.
tanak balikkkkkkk pon. :(
tak puas nyeeeeeeeeeee

ape kene tah ngan aku neh?

sometimes, what was there back then may be was not so very special
but my beautiful memories overtook it.
they are all in my head. still. i wonder why?
sometimes, it got stucked in my head
eventhough i was or am with someone else. * this is not good *
did i just make a comparison by saying this?
*bwk2la ngucap*

well, thisis one side of my lame stories. a confused mind wth a cold heart
and heres where i get a little harsh perhaps
as much as i love him * i am a loving person, what to do *
we both have moved on.
maybe iam afraid of losing him.
doesnt matter, if it was a brief one
it is not an issue.

but i have known him for so long - since the late 90s
with the right chemistry and a little luck
i feel like like ... tahhhhhhhhh
i guess it must have been the feeling that counts
perhaps we did everything together
so may be now i am just missing him.
missing the paratnership -the role that he played in my past life.
may be aku dah mula rase kehilangan.

ps. u better control your feelings and emotions sue!!! dont mess up! ko bkn leh caye sgt!! * kuar tandok *