in the middle of the night ...

hello ...

it has been a busy week, but much better than last week.

we are still having morning classes, sometimes noon, sometimes not.

refusing his bottles? it certainly would not have been fun if he started crying. i don’t want to force him.

at times, it seems to have worked. most of the time, he totally rejects the teats.

nanny sam tried to feed him too. that did not work either. Tsk. Abah? Urghh. nope. nope.

i desperately need him to get to his bottles. january is just around the corner. sigh.

i am not upset or anything just that may be this is just the way it is and i need to be patient. yes.

Ok, the truth is i feel a bit worn down. it still continues to be a bit of a challenge trying to get him bottle feeding.

may be this is another step of him growing up, path of growth?. yes.

anyways, i made another online order from bbstore.com days back.

and was hoping for him to take it. nope. * tak apa, usaha tangga kejayaan * haih.

though i sound, like i am having kind of a bum week nah life has been fanta-bulous really. he he we have been having teriffic days.

dengan bantal ajaib dia !

best kan nursing pillow mak? ha ha.

tu kalau diletakkan kat riba, dia tau dah its milk time! tengok la muka tu! eeee kalau dikasi botol nangis sampai hilang suara. bila tau je nak selak...tengok tu tengok !

haris is not going to be my little tiny weeny itsy bitsy sugarbum etc baby for so long kan? even the list continues, you will allways be my little bunny forever haha. *cekak pinggang *

don’t care if choo choo times is going to turn into haris, haris, haris thing for awhile.

is it friday already? sleep tight everyone!

ps : life is too short not to enjoy my new life right now as long as i can. knowing him my first that i am trying to cherish it as much as i can.

dia buat daaaah!

hellow peeps...

baiklah! bulan meragam sudah tiba untuk encik abang saya nan seorang ni.

eee aku picit2 jugak budak ni!

now that i have to get back to work in January * time is damn flying by so fast * and i am worried about many things.

now what?

one of the things i am worried is this budak mengader adam haris now a days refuses his bottles! uwaaaaaa.

sure kena one :), siapa cakap aku boleh terlepas macam tu jer? hiks.

ajar awal-awal - sudah!
beli botol comel - sudah!
teats yang menepati citarasa - sudah!
*padahal bukan aku yang nak minum hee*
bpa free, anti colic lah, ape kejadah tah - pun sudah!

masa tu konon berkenankan botol yang gemuk-gemuk nan comel lagi berwarna pelangi ha ha.

sebab boringlah botol-botol leher putih, body transparent. so, belilah botol MAM di waktu preggy dulu.

memang tiada masalah pun masa mula aku ajarkan bottle feeding ni. bila keluar outing ok je semua. tak ada masalah penolakan pun.

* kes puji-pujian kat adam haris la ni mengader die ee geram mammy *

sejak dia menginjak 2 bulan ni, dia dah mula kenal agaknya yang mana tulen yang mana palsu. he he. * cubit kang *.

mulanya, aku ingat susu perahan aku rosak atau dah basi dia tak nak minum. maklum la expressed milk ni sensitif bila dah dikeluarkan dari peti sejuk.

seperti yang diajar aunty rachah lah :-

perahan susu yang disimpan dalam freezer boleh bertahan 3 bulan. keluarkan tengah malam dan letak dalam fridge bawah compartment paling atas untuk kegunaan esok hari. * macam ape jer cakap cam neh *

then kasi thaw lah. susu ini boleh tahan sampai 4 jam.

perahan susu yang terus disimpan dalam fridge bawah boleh bertahan 7 jam saja. sila pakai untuk hari itu saja. jangan letakkan balik dalam freezer pulak.

*bau daun pandan la tu nanti * :p

tip I : untuk pengeluaran susu yang banyak, boleh buat double pumping. banyak hokeh.

tip II : kalau kata tengah breastfeed dia sebelah, boleh pump sebelah breast lagi. hasilnya pun lumayan. ha ha berbanding kalau pump satu-satu.

macam mana keadaan anda bila buat semua ini? jangan la cakap, mmg melucukan lah ha ha. aku nak tergelak jer pun ada masa first time tu.

adik aku pun gelakkan aku.

nina : tak stim ke long, tak stim ke long? pakai penyedut tu. * sambil gelak2*
choo : oi giler ke na?

nota tangan: mungkin hasil tak sama untuk lain-lain orang but who knows :d

haih tiga minggu lepas dok elok je boyfriend mak cik nina susukan dia kat
giant masa aku kelam kabut ribut pergi stock up trolley. tsk.

he is getting pickier i think.

sejak pada tu, hati aku mula tak senang. macam mana la nak kerja ni? tiba-tiba buat hal pulak. dah pulak macam-macam yang aku dah baca ,diberitahu dan yang bermain di fikiran.

ada baby yang sanggup tahan lapar sampai la ibu dia balik dari kerja untuk susukan dia. ibu mana yang tak risau, yang sampai hati. sobs.

terus berhenti kerja. satu contoh. yang aku baca lagi la macam-macam. boleh google. terima kasih. he he.

sejak pada tu juga, aku pun mulakan la kelas membotol. kejap kelas siang kejap kelas malam nak mengajar balik en. abang ni.

siap buat botol tu terbang-terbang nak hinggap kat mulut dia. punya la nak beritahu dia betapa fun nya botol susu dia tu.

tsk tak jalan juga. terima kasih.

siap cakap please, please, please dengan muka kesian mammy. dia amik juga la teat tu, tapi dia pushed away pulak bila dah rasa puting tiruan.

tsk tak jalan juga. terima kasih.

siap dodoi berdukung * sebab mammy dia tak ajar dia berdukung sangat * membotolkan dia. dia amik la teat tu tapi tak mahu juga hisap.

tsk tak jalan juga terima kasih.

entah apa la yang dia bebelkan sambil mengemam puting susu tu dengan pandangan mata kat mammy dia. kalau la mammy paham apa haris cakap senang cerita!

alolololoh sian mammy tengok, nah hamek letak botol susu kat tepi selak baju terus kasi breastmilk. * cair ko buat mammy ko ok *

apa lagi yang boleh aku buat?. thanks to this tip. kurang sikit kerisauan di hati. aku cuba lagi.

minggu lepas barangan yang aku order dari mybbstore sampai. tak sabar nak cuba.

tu dia. cuba lagi kan? siap beli botol yang teats dia menyerupai nip boobs mak okeh from nuby natural touch dan tommee tippee close to nature ni.

nuby's teat

tommee tippee's teat

pada aku la, if ada newbie mothers yang nak membotolkan babies mereka boleh beli yang ini for beginner. close enough! heh.

* kenape la aku mengader tak beli ini dulu *

tsk. tapi tak berapa nak jalan juga. tanda positif ada. nampak la gelagat dia tu, nak ngap jer sebab nak serupa. bila kena tang lidah dia, caih tak mahu jugak.

tak apa, cuba lagi. die kenal kaler tak same la tuh! ha ha. rase pun lain la mammy! jgn tipu haris okeh.

aku ada la menipu dia sikit, siap bubuh la kat nips mak ni teat pelsu tu. konon dia boleh blah ker khan.

ngap tetap ngap, tapi haihhhhhh dia tau mammy dia tipu dia. cit.

i have tried a whole bunch of bottles and teats. cap ayam pun aku try. kecik besar, lebar, panjang, pendek semua lah.

* puting cap mak aku pakai dulu-dulu si Doctor’s Baby tu jer belum lagi. tak jumpe lah! *

it's ok, i will have to think of something. if he truly does not want his bottles, i need back up plan just to standby. you never know.

for the time being, i will try and try. encouragement from family, friends really helps because it seems stressful at a time.

tunggu la harisssss petang karang mammy buat kelas petang! hepppppppppp.

paling-paling teruk pun, mak angkut jer dia pi kerja. ha ha. tengok la macam mana. buat masa ni, berikhtiar and berusaha.

tak boleh stress-stress mammy, nanti susu kurang.

pagi tadi kan, dia terjaga pukul 8 pagi macam tu. * boleh dengar suara dia tak menangis tapi macam oi oi cam tu * ha ha

haus la tu. tu belum bangun betul lagi sebab haris biasanya akan bangun dalam pukul 10-10.30 a.m.

* betul kan? the rutine really works. dia bangun tepat pada waktu dia sebab dia tau it's bathing time! * eiii

aku pi la tengok dia. awwwwwwwwww you know what, your heart just melts when he sees you and returning your smile.

aku nak nanges ni hawat pulak!!! * biasa laa anak pertama *

now, now, the other thing that i worry about is the nanny! just to have to think of it makes me crazy already. tapi takkan selesai selagi tak buat apa-apa.

ok semua, mak nak pi menjemput bibik sam petang karang. semoga baik peribadi dan budi pekertinya. amin.

ps: adam haris just wants his mammy. that's all :(.

bigger than ever breast !

tee hee :)

korang memang suka tau click2 bila vocab itu disebut-sebut. boleh la dibangga-bangga sikit dengan perkembangan buah dada mak yang membesar ni.

kalau tidak sebelum ni? tak dapat lah! say thank you to the boobies milk!

first thing first, i am a fully breastfeeding mammy. i believe in breastfeeding and prefer to breastfeed forever if god willing.

enough said

it is the most amazing feeling in the world * not even making sex can beat this feeling LOL *. the closeness that it brings between us is priceless.

aku bersyukur because it is not something all women can experience.

i love my time alone with him

believe me, i know how it feels like when you cannot breastfeed your own.

when adam haris was a day old, to my surprise he latched on right along perfectly without any problem.

*ei where did he learn that from? *

aku? aku belajar dari brochures ‘panduan penyusuan susu ibu’ yang aunty rachah suruh baca sendiri dan fahami. * semua benda nak garang tau dia *

eventhough he was good at it without being taught to, my breast milk! :( it won't come out!

it was so heart breaking for me when i thought i didn’t have milk to give him for the very first time.

* punah harapan aku masa tu, sebab memang niat aku hendak menyusu badan dari awal kandungan lagi *

sememang tuhan menganugerahkan buah dada kita untuk menyusukan anak. jadi bukan aku memilih, memang sepatutnya.

namun, bukan semua ibu dapat merasainya di atas sebab-sebab tertentu. thank you to formula feeding.

i cried. sian anak aku dah macam anak burung tapi susu nya tak keluar juga.

thanks to mama, she helped a lot. she massaged my breasts to stimulate milk flow. applying ice pack, kobis pun ada hah. menangis jugak bila ditekan-dipicit buah nya. sakit!

alhamdulillah, two days after we made it through. i cried ... happily. heh memang luar biasa. perasaan yang aku tunggu-tunggu tiba juga. sobs.



memang betul la kata orang, ibu lepas bersalin dalam pantang ni fragile amat. menangis saja la kerjanya * aku lah, orang lain aku kurang pasti *

entah apa-apa.

i normally breastfeed him every two hours. i have started pumping too since 2 months ago. way to go mammy! thanks to dak cit for this Spectra 3. muah :)

if you ask me, personally i would recommend it. :D

note : thank you arin! you save the day. * mak kan tak sabar * heh.

well, i routinely tuck him to bed at 10 p.m., morning bath at 10 a.m, naps an hour or two or more heh in the afternoon.

if the nap works out or whenever he feels like it. *if not, i let him jog and swim ha ha ha* then, evening bath at 6 p.m. nursing too accordingly without fail.

bath time, bath time!

he's really loving it!

believe me, all these routines stuff really work. * not sure to the rest though * i managed to settle everything in a month after giving birth to him.

alhamdulillah. sekali lagi, harap berpanjangan la insyallah.

we usually have a good nap and sometime a bad nap. * more to good ones * good boy. my baby, he is a night sleeper. mudah-mudahan berkekalan rutin ni.

just that, he wakes up twice at night * lain-lain aku yang kacau * for diaper changing, for nursing. then he will go to bed soon after without hassle.

sometimes, i let him sleep a bit longer between feeding. * kalau kesian, if tidak menjadi pulak tido dia tuh heh *

Sebulan pertama dulu, setiap dua jam aku kene kejutkan dia yang tido lena gile sampai tak sedar apa-apa. tak nak bangun ok.

* macam susah nak kejut je tu kemudian hari * ngee :p. yup it sounds like abah. mane lagi kuah nak pergi kalau tak tumpah kat nasi.

he he

about expressed milk bottle feeding - , i have taught him to bottle feed earlier when he was about 2 weeks old. he catched on quite good.

people often said to me, better teach them early so that at the end of the day, *when you have to start working*, i will not have to face problem switching from breastfeeding to bottle feeding.

other than that, i don't have to worry to look for baby's room to feed him. * paham-paham saja la kat negara kita ni kekurangan tempat untuk ibu menyusu anak *

i love subang parade's - mother's room yang sangat bersih dan menenangkan!

takkan nak mengkopek sesuka hati khan. * kalau terbuka takpe juga kaum2 adam tu ni tidak, pantang tebojol nak tengok ajer cit! *

swimming in public pun salah satu contoh. boleh blahhhhhh! entah apa-apa lah. * teringat pulak vista pinggiran *

sekarang nak swimming ko sue? * tengok lemak terkuar-kuar * ok, i passsssss ha ha.

ok meleret.

my baby is such a dearie.

thank you god, for giving us such joy. * walaupun mengader juga, tapi tak banyak kerenah.

now, i have other things to worry about !  * sigh *

good nite everyone, sleep tight.

ps : don't give up. it does not mean we fail. it means that we will have to take extra effort and patience to make it work. Insyaallah.