Exams are coming!

Jadi cikgu kejap 😂 

Good luck anak-anak semua yang bakal menghadapi peperiksaan akhir tahun 2016.  

Ps:  don't worry anak mami.  I'll there for you 😘.  Abah, adik-adik too.   The five of us.  

okay, i know i am too far ...

but i cannot help it. heh. i simply cannot.

well being a mom fun mom is not easy okay when you are in a toy store!!!

* masa preggy tak ingat-ingat kononnya ini tak boleh, itu tak boleh, no this, no that. will not this, will not that*.

tak boleh, tak boleh manjakan anak sangat.

nahee konon.

now what?

this is the thing, i am ready * about to* to buy these exersaucers ...

for my about to become spoilt little tiramisu...

but not sure which one to get. haih. or should i not.


i know, " alaaa nanti kejap je dia pakai sue lepas tu dah membazir ".

fine.

i don't know if it is too early but i think and feel that he is getting close to being ready. yup yup he is.

he likes standing now and hates to be lain down. * oh lupa nak cakap, untuk bulan 4 ini, meragamnya ialah sudah tidak mahu duduk dalam stroller *

arghh sila bantu!! tu la degil dah saya bilang jangan didukung. sekarang, siapa yang berketak-ketak lengan tu? aku jugakkkkk.

kat mana tadi?

oh, yup he loves standing. i surely can bet it will be such a jolly thing for him. we tried to put him once in the jumperoo ha ha when we went to the toys r us.

ok dia sudah tak hingin tengok mak nyer lagi lepas tu. LOL. budak-budak sekarang bukan main. * mak nyer yang over sebenarnya * tah ...

what say you mommies? the exersaucer or the jumperoo?

yes? no? should? should not?

ps: banyak cap pulak dah...sekarang mana satu aku nak pilih ni?

4 bulan lah! ...

have you hugged your baby today?

saya sudah beribu-ribu lemon!

he he saya sudah 4 bulan lah mammy. kebetulan jari nye empat ha ha, abah snap ni untuk mammy semalam ...

empat lah, empat ni :p

Yup, Mammy’s baby turned 4 months yesterday. Yeehoo yeehoo ... no check up and no shot for this month heh.

I know some would be giving solid food by now. since i have been sucked dry LOL well, i will go with the recommended 6 months before introducing solid food.

I think it won't do any harm since he is fully boobsfed.

nota :  suck dry konon, kurusnya tak juga. grr

Tah, i don’t know. We will see how he progress. Maybe he will start on solid food soon? Who knows? when he is ready of course ...

Anyway, a quick update on this kek lapis * yer dah jadi kek lapis dah * ha ha. He’s 6.6 kg. i know, sekejap nya!

 

haris ni kadang perasan yang dia dah umur 6 bulan tau mammy tengok.  ewah ewah

He’s starting to jog while standing. :) Can’t stand yet of course.

antu mammy gigit dia ha ha ...

He likes to eat his hands. Semua sekali, dijolok-jolok lepas tu, sendiri yang nak termuntah ha ha. Entah apa-apa.

Makan blankie jugak, nampak macam main dengan blankie dia tapi mammy tau la dia diam-diam makan blankie dia tu. mulut mak pun dia nyot nyot gak. Ha ha

He’s grabbing and picking up things too. can't roll yet, sometimes i do help him just to exercise a bit la kek lapis. 

kena pujuk abah beli cam canggih pulak.  kalau tak, ini lah hasilnya. 

* sekarang guna anak jer modalnya miahaha *

he's biting me now.  but he's not teething yet?.  *gulp* Itu belum ada gigi tu. Kalau ada? Mau putus.

Dulu masa nursing, tepuk-tepuk la boobs mak, tarik baju, pegang ni pegang tu.
naseb baik la tak digentel2 macam orang lain tu kan. Ee mak tutup okeh. Ha ha

* sekarang sudah punya deria rasa tu, diraba-raba dengan lemah-lembut boobs mak kalau tengah nursing. Boleh?

Bolehhhh :p. Janji jangan gigit mammy sudah.  ouch!

He watches tv LOL. Sometimes, plays with himself too. * lega nyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa * walaupun boleh bertahan 10 minit jer. Jadi lahhh.

tengok tv ngan awek cun okeh :) 

ala tomeh-tomeh kaseh ni * ngap ngap * 

sudah- sudah haris, jangan nak berangan.  dua pupu kamu tu.  hep.

Teaspoon-feeding ha ha is going well. sebelum mak pergi kerja, isi minyak dulu. Lepas tu ning akan menyusu-sudukan dia pula :p. Lepas tu dia akan tidur.

Dia dah tau agaknya nanti aku akan balik tengahari untuk susukan dia. Masa tu, mula la merengek-rengek.

* berita gembira tuh – tandanya dia sudah kenal mammy nye tu * ehem ehem. Sweeettttt.

abah juga.  :)).  orang yang paling dinanti-nanti ialah tak lain tak bukan abahnya.  punya la susah nak jumpa abah dia tu satu hari. 

suara kuattttt giler juga!

*bengang gila dengan blogspot, kenapa tak boleh nak upload video pulak ni?*

ok dah boleh heh.  saya maafkan blogspot. 

He is more and more a joy everyday.

ps:  am i doing the right thing? I think so.

in the middle of the night ...

hello ...

it has been a busy week, but much better than last week.

we are still having morning classes, sometimes noon, sometimes not.

refusing his bottles? it certainly would not have been fun if he started crying. i don’t want to force him.

at times, it seems to have worked. most of the time, he totally rejects the teats.

nanny sam tried to feed him too. that did not work either. Tsk. Abah? Urghh. nope. nope.

i desperately need him to get to his bottles. january is just around the corner. sigh.

i am not upset or anything just that may be this is just the way it is and i need to be patient. yes.

Ok, the truth is i feel a bit worn down. it still continues to be a bit of a challenge trying to get him bottle feeding.

may be this is another step of him growing up, path of growth?. yes.

anyways, i made another online order from bbstore.com days back.

and was hoping for him to take it. nope. * tak apa, usaha tangga kejayaan * haih.

though i sound, like i am having kind of a bum week nah life has been fanta-bulous really. he he we have been having teriffic days.

dengan bantal ajaib dia !

best kan nursing pillow mak? ha ha.

tu kalau diletakkan kat riba, dia tau dah its milk time! tengok la muka tu! eeee kalau dikasi botol nangis sampai hilang suara. bila tau je nak selak...tengok tu tengok !

haris is not going to be my little tiny weeny itsy bitsy sugarbum etc baby for so long kan? even the list continues, you will allways be my little bunny forever haha. *cekak pinggang *

don’t care if choo choo times is going to turn into haris, haris, haris thing for awhile.

is it friday already? sleep tight everyone!

ps : life is too short not to enjoy my new life right now as long as i can. knowing him my first that i am trying to cherish it as much as i can.

sam, the nanny ...

we fired the nanny.

yup, we did. we sent her off to the agent this afternoon due to her health problem and other personal reasons.

we took her home last Monday remember? her name is sam, bibik sam. she’s a 43 year old indonesian.

she had been with us for a week and we decided not to have her. not that she has done anything wrong in the house or mistreated our baby.

one of the reasons ...

it was just that, haris did not want her. * memang ngade sikit sejak masuk bulan baru ni *

anak mak ni kan bukannyer jenis menangis sangat. mandi is one of his favourite things tapi boleh menangis pulak dah.

hmmm ... hawat pulak ni abang? eceh macam akan ada adik saja nanti? :P * mak berangan sekali-sekala lah, tak boleh? he he *

pokoknya, apa saja yang berkaitan dengan nanny tu, dia bunyi lah. takkan dipakaikan diaper pun nak nangis haris? rotan kang? * fav words mammy * heh

* memang dia tak bunyi kalau ditukarkan diaper setakat ni lah*

tahap kemengadaan dia ialah bila mak marah dia menjebik dan menangis tak mengeluarkan air mata lepas tu.

cam gambar passport la pulak neh hehehe

dah, dah jangan berlakon yer. rotan kang! aa ok jangan mudah cair yer puan-puan he he he.

bukan kata dia mahukan mammy saja yang mandikan dia, bukannya tak pernah orang lain mandikan pun. Kasi lah satu seksyen 8 mandikan dia, sure suka punya :p

serabutnya cam duduk di rumah banglo je gaya :p

agaknya ada hikmah di sebalik semua ini. dalam hati ni, memang berat sebenarnya. dari awal lagi aku memang serabut memikirkan tentang ini.

dengan macam-macam yang kita dah dengar, berani betul nak ambil pembantu rumah ni sue? aunty rachah? memang pangkah habis babe.

bukannya aku cakap ni seolah-olah sebabkan nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga tidak. memang bukan semuanya yang tak baik.

* eh pandainyer mak berperibahasa nok * he he

memang tak baik menilai seseorang sebelum kita mengenali peribadi dia. yup, betul.

tapi dia bukan orang kita sue?...

siapa cakap aku tak risau? siapa cakap aku tak takut? * bila ada anak sendiri baru lah aku tahu perasaan ni *

kenapa tidak dihantar ke babysitter saja sue?...

tak ada yang bersesuaian di kawasan perumahan aku ni, bukan tak cari. day care pun berlambak-lambak budak.

we thought we need a nanny to look after haris at home, to ensure that he is cared for. him only. * semua dah aku fikirkan yang terbaik *

siapa yang tidak mahukan yang terbaik buat anak mereka?

we have discussed on the installation of nanny cams too. sigh. untuk keselamatan sampai macam tu sekali k.

aku fikir, bila aku dah mula bekerja nanti, aku akan hantar mereka berdua ni ke rumah uncle cekdan lah.

sekurang-kurangnya, my father is around to supervise the nanny.

sebab-sebab lain juga...

kalau tak ada minat untuk berusaha mengajar botol kat anak aku, tak jadi juga. aku ni tak putus asa, dia dah give up. macam mana ni?

asyik cakap anak aku tak nak botol, tak nak botol. ini tidak, sekali attempt jer? wak lu la. pemalas.

aku ni nak kasi haris sekali hisap pun nak 15 minit itu pun siap nyanyi la, puji-puji bagai budak mengada tu. nak juga la hisap tu dalam dia dok membebel he he.

see dia boleh, cuma kena train hari-hari. sebab dia tau ada lagi yang lebih sedap. super duper sedap gitew. heh.

haris tanak botol. jangan ikut dia lah, memang dia nak boobs mammy dia je la kan. :p. semua orang tahu tu.

mammy tau la paler haris tu hepppppppp. muka notty jer bila nampak mammy nak selak baju. cit.

dah la slow, lembab pulak * same ke ni *. tak tahu la kalau semua kesan daripada masalah kesihatan dia.

aku bawak dia balik shah alam semalam. mak aku pangkah. adik aku pangkah. slow sangat.

mengagah budak-budak pun tak reti? kata ada anak 3 orang, siap ada cucu semua. majikan sebelum ni pun ada anak-anak juga. entah la ...

satu pagi, aku terdengar dia bersembang dengan hero mak tu

bik : kenapa ni? nangis ni? * sebut nama tak pernah ok *
haris : lalak lerr
bik : jangan nangis yer nanti mak cik lari nanti
haris : dulik ape dia lalak lagi he he

apo ko bondo lah sembang style gini. * eh tetibe ckp nogori heh * eee sabar je lah

efforts nak buat sesuatu untuk anak aku tu tak ada pun. tengok saja lah...tengok kosong. sah la bukan loving orangnya ni. no no no...

tapi sepanjang dia di rumah ni, ada rupa rumah la sikit teratak kecil kita orang ni. yes yes yes ... yang itu aku berterima kasih.

dah aku tanya-tanya kat doktor aku tu semalam, dia suspek makcik ni mungkin ada fibroid. atau pun nak putus haid.

bibik sam pergi bilik air lagi kerap daripada jaga anak aku okeh.

aku minta dia berhenti saja dan berubat. itu yang terbaik, kesihatan paling utama. bukan boleh dipandang remeh sakit puan ni.

bukannya tak baik orangnya, ok tu ok. cuma lembik semacam agaknya masalah kesihatan dia tu, pendarahan yang tak berhenti buatkan dia lemah, pucat semua lah kot.

5 bulan pulak tu katanya, tipu ke apa ke terserah dia la. she's not around anymore.

pada dok gaji dia hapa pun tarak, tak payah.

tolak stroller haris pun tak larat. menonong jer. kerap juga la accident dengan orang yanag lalu-lalang. sudahnya aunty epy je la tolak kayyyyy :p. mammy malas!

pulang beristirehat la bik yer.

now, i have to think of something else. fikir lagi! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh ...

ps : no one will love them, like you will. yup, no one will because they are ours. how i am jealous of those stay at home mothers. sigh.

congrats pumpkin!

hello everyone...

buah hati labu manis * ha ha ha * saya, haris tengah tido sekarang. cepat-cepat buat entry. h a ha ha.

anak, bapak tido! mak?

menaip dengan laju la ni :p

at last, he's now an infant! congrats * nak tunggu grad lama lagi he he * anak mammy sudah tiga bulan hari ini! alhamdullilah.

sebabkan haris kuat makan, he’s officially a 3-6 mos size. now kita kena stock up 6-9 mos clothes la pulak haris oiiits.

filling out with all the cute baby chubbiness * berulas-ulas ko peha nya *, not forgetting his chubby, chubbier cheeks. eeee eee eeee.

sila la abaikan lurah dendam mak tuh yeh ick!

aku tak leh nak edit lah :p

i wonder how much he weighs right now. hmmmm. isnin ni, will be our appointment with dr. Koshy.

arghhh, mammy ingat anak mammy kecil lagi, baru pakaikan dia tee 3 mos hari ini eh ngam ngam lah. eeeee, kalau mammy tau dah lama mammy pakaikan! rugi-rugi.

socks pun sudah tukar size 0-6 mos. sempat rembat jugak minggu lepas!
girls' punya comei2 lah ...

boys ini jer lah yg ada tsk

sila pelbagaikan tolong!!!

we bought new friends for him to play with last Saturday, animal wrist rattles. yup an evening with aunty epy at Midvalley last weekend! * nah, didn’t blog about it yet ha ha *

since he has discovered his new hands, so i thought these fella could help him explore better!

cheeky & moo moo

Bought him his first cloth book too. ooh believe me he loves it. :) i think early learning is good.

not that i want him to be a man right now ha ha just to make him busy lah so that i can worry about other things like, household chores!

makan minum abah terbengkalai setahun ni ha ha. Oops.

yeah, why not? it's colourful! it's fun too.

monkey sees, monkey zoo!

chuckling & giggling himself with the monkey :)

an interesting discovery!

3 or 4 days back, i was in the kitchen preparing dinner. so i left the small guy with abah in his playpen together with his book.

i heard him, babling, talking, cooing just like everyday thing. well, so long as he does not cry for this moo moo mum, i am perfectly fine with it.

*mak boring lah nak mengkopek jer. hahah nak basuh pinggan pun tak senang*

suddenly, it became louder and louder. eh, melampau kuat ni. duduk bersembang apa entah.

mammy : apesal kuat sangat ni. Dia dok bersembang dengan haris yang? Tak pernah dengar lagi bunyi tu.

abah : *tak jawab *

mammy : die dengar ke tak sue cakap ni yang? yangggggggggggggggggggg? nokkkkkkkkkkk? dia buat apa tu? * ngomel2 ee asal aku panggil jer bukan nak menyaut *

abah : *tak jawab jugak *

i went to the living room to see what was happening. I thought he was playing with abah. fret not, abah dia skodeng sajer tengok dia buat apa!

* sambil signal suruh aku shut up * i was like, whoaa i have gotta grab this hihi

*clap hands* aku kadang umpan jer la dia dengan buku tu buat dia leka. macam ribut la aku mengemas rumah lepas tu. bukan senang oo.

now, he likes the book so much. i routinely read and sometimes sing him book. nyanyi? belasah je lah ha ha. * yo naik mengantuk aku dibuatnya bukan nya dia ! ha ha *

other than that, he's fine. a good boy when it comes to a day out to the mall or anywhere. he loves his stroller. janji bergerak la ok. mengader! he looks and looks and looks.

try talk to him...he will return you with a smile heh. such a cutest thing la you!

* mak rasa bosan dengan stroller tu, nak cari yang ringan boleh? *

same goes with his carseat. aku ingat dia tak suka. he has no problem sitting in it in the car for the first time.

cuak jugak la kan kot kang eee buatnya dia menangis tengah jam!

mak kadang malas nak dukung * sebab malas ajar * mak sidai je dia kat luar dengan menatang ni jer. ha ha * mak ko mmg hazab *

aku rasa dia dah mula tahu siapa di sekeliling dia. sikit-sikit dah nampak tahap mengada-ngadanya tu :p

apa pun, you are unique. that what makes you so special. sayang anak mammy & abah. * abah memang nampak macam manja anak lebih lah. tolongssssss *

tsk bab botol jer tak grad lagi. pening pale mak.
nitey nite everyone, salam maal hijrah.

Ps: he’s growing so fast. i just feel like crying tsk so sentimental of me. sentimental forever :P

dia buat daaaah!

hellow peeps...

baiklah! bulan meragam sudah tiba untuk encik abang saya nan seorang ni.

eee aku picit2 jugak budak ni!

now that i have to get back to work in January * time is damn flying by so fast * and i am worried about many things.

now what?

one of the things i am worried is this budak mengader adam haris now a days refuses his bottles! uwaaaaaa.

sure kena one :), siapa cakap aku boleh terlepas macam tu jer? hiks.

ajar awal-awal - sudah!
beli botol comel - sudah!
teats yang menepati citarasa - sudah!
*padahal bukan aku yang nak minum hee*
bpa free, anti colic lah, ape kejadah tah - pun sudah!

masa tu konon berkenankan botol yang gemuk-gemuk nan comel lagi berwarna pelangi ha ha.

sebab boringlah botol-botol leher putih, body transparent. so, belilah botol MAM di waktu preggy dulu.

memang tiada masalah pun masa mula aku ajarkan bottle feeding ni. bila keluar outing ok je semua. tak ada masalah penolakan pun.

* kes puji-pujian kat adam haris la ni mengader die ee geram mammy *

sejak dia menginjak 2 bulan ni, dia dah mula kenal agaknya yang mana tulen yang mana palsu. he he. * cubit kang *.

mulanya, aku ingat susu perahan aku rosak atau dah basi dia tak nak minum. maklum la expressed milk ni sensitif bila dah dikeluarkan dari peti sejuk.

seperti yang diajar aunty rachah lah :-

perahan susu yang disimpan dalam freezer boleh bertahan 3 bulan. keluarkan tengah malam dan letak dalam fridge bawah compartment paling atas untuk kegunaan esok hari. * macam ape jer cakap cam neh *

then kasi thaw lah. susu ini boleh tahan sampai 4 jam.

perahan susu yang terus disimpan dalam fridge bawah boleh bertahan 7 jam saja. sila pakai untuk hari itu saja. jangan letakkan balik dalam freezer pulak.

*bau daun pandan la tu nanti * :p

tip I : untuk pengeluaran susu yang banyak, boleh buat double pumping. banyak hokeh.

tip II : kalau kata tengah breastfeed dia sebelah, boleh pump sebelah breast lagi. hasilnya pun lumayan. ha ha berbanding kalau pump satu-satu.

macam mana keadaan anda bila buat semua ini? jangan la cakap, mmg melucukan lah ha ha. aku nak tergelak jer pun ada masa first time tu.

adik aku pun gelakkan aku.

nina : tak stim ke long, tak stim ke long? pakai penyedut tu. * sambil gelak2*
choo : oi giler ke na?

nota tangan: mungkin hasil tak sama untuk lain-lain orang but who knows :d

haih tiga minggu lepas dok elok je boyfriend mak cik nina susukan dia kat
giant masa aku kelam kabut ribut pergi stock up trolley. tsk.

he is getting pickier i think.

sejak pada tu, hati aku mula tak senang. macam mana la nak kerja ni? tiba-tiba buat hal pulak. dah pulak macam-macam yang aku dah baca ,diberitahu dan yang bermain di fikiran.

ada baby yang sanggup tahan lapar sampai la ibu dia balik dari kerja untuk susukan dia. ibu mana yang tak risau, yang sampai hati. sobs.

terus berhenti kerja. satu contoh. yang aku baca lagi la macam-macam. boleh google. terima kasih. he he.

sejak pada tu juga, aku pun mulakan la kelas membotol. kejap kelas siang kejap kelas malam nak mengajar balik en. abang ni.

siap buat botol tu terbang-terbang nak hinggap kat mulut dia. punya la nak beritahu dia betapa fun nya botol susu dia tu.

tsk tak jalan juga. terima kasih.

siap cakap please, please, please dengan muka kesian mammy. dia amik juga la teat tu, tapi dia pushed away pulak bila dah rasa puting tiruan.

tsk tak jalan juga. terima kasih.

siap dodoi berdukung * sebab mammy dia tak ajar dia berdukung sangat * membotolkan dia. dia amik la teat tu tapi tak mahu juga hisap.

tsk tak jalan juga terima kasih.

entah apa la yang dia bebelkan sambil mengemam puting susu tu dengan pandangan mata kat mammy dia. kalau la mammy paham apa haris cakap senang cerita!

alolololoh sian mammy tengok, nah hamek letak botol susu kat tepi selak baju terus kasi breastmilk. * cair ko buat mammy ko ok *

apa lagi yang boleh aku buat?. thanks to this tip. kurang sikit kerisauan di hati. aku cuba lagi.

minggu lepas barangan yang aku order dari mybbstore sampai. tak sabar nak cuba.

tu dia. cuba lagi kan? siap beli botol yang teats dia menyerupai nip boobs mak okeh from nuby natural touch dan tommee tippee close to nature ni.

nuby's teat

tommee tippee's teat

pada aku la, if ada newbie mothers yang nak membotolkan babies mereka boleh beli yang ini for beginner. close enough! heh.

* kenape la aku mengader tak beli ini dulu *

tsk. tapi tak berapa nak jalan juga. tanda positif ada. nampak la gelagat dia tu, nak ngap jer sebab nak serupa. bila kena tang lidah dia, caih tak mahu jugak.

tak apa, cuba lagi. die kenal kaler tak same la tuh! ha ha. rase pun lain la mammy! jgn tipu haris okeh.

aku ada la menipu dia sikit, siap bubuh la kat nips mak ni teat pelsu tu. konon dia boleh blah ker khan.

ngap tetap ngap, tapi haihhhhhh dia tau mammy dia tipu dia. cit.

i have tried a whole bunch of bottles and teats. cap ayam pun aku try. kecik besar, lebar, panjang, pendek semua lah.

* puting cap mak aku pakai dulu-dulu si Doctor’s Baby tu jer belum lagi. tak jumpe lah! *

it's ok, i will have to think of something. if he truly does not want his bottles, i need back up plan just to standby. you never know.

for the time being, i will try and try. encouragement from family, friends really helps because it seems stressful at a time.

tunggu la harisssss petang karang mammy buat kelas petang! hepppppppppp.

paling-paling teruk pun, mak angkut jer dia pi kerja. ha ha. tengok la macam mana. buat masa ni, berikhtiar and berusaha.

tak boleh stress-stress mammy, nanti susu kurang.

pagi tadi kan, dia terjaga pukul 8 pagi macam tu. * boleh dengar suara dia tak menangis tapi macam oi oi cam tu * ha ha

haus la tu. tu belum bangun betul lagi sebab haris biasanya akan bangun dalam pukul 10-10.30 a.m.

* betul kan? the rutine really works. dia bangun tepat pada waktu dia sebab dia tau it's bathing time! * eiii

aku pi la tengok dia. awwwwwwwwww you know what, your heart just melts when he sees you and returning your smile.

aku nak nanges ni hawat pulak!!! * biasa laa anak pertama *

now, now, the other thing that i worry about is the nanny! just to have to think of it makes me crazy already. tapi takkan selesai selagi tak buat apa-apa.

ok semua, mak nak pi menjemput bibik sam petang karang. semoga baik peribadi dan budi pekertinya. amin.

ps: adam haris just wants his mammy. that's all :(.

bigger than ever breast !

tee hee :)

korang memang suka tau click2 bila vocab itu disebut-sebut. boleh la dibangga-bangga sikit dengan perkembangan buah dada mak yang membesar ni.

kalau tidak sebelum ni? tak dapat lah! say thank you to the boobies milk!

first thing first, i am a fully breastfeeding mammy. i believe in breastfeeding and prefer to breastfeed forever if god willing.

enough said

it is the most amazing feeling in the world * not even making sex can beat this feeling LOL *. the closeness that it brings between us is priceless.

aku bersyukur because it is not something all women can experience.

i love my time alone with him

believe me, i know how it feels like when you cannot breastfeed your own.

when adam haris was a day old, to my surprise he latched on right along perfectly without any problem.

*ei where did he learn that from? *

aku? aku belajar dari brochures ‘panduan penyusuan susu ibu’ yang aunty rachah suruh baca sendiri dan fahami. * semua benda nak garang tau dia *

eventhough he was good at it without being taught to, my breast milk! :( it won't come out!

it was so heart breaking for me when i thought i didn’t have milk to give him for the very first time.

* punah harapan aku masa tu, sebab memang niat aku hendak menyusu badan dari awal kandungan lagi *

sememang tuhan menganugerahkan buah dada kita untuk menyusukan anak. jadi bukan aku memilih, memang sepatutnya.

namun, bukan semua ibu dapat merasainya di atas sebab-sebab tertentu. thank you to formula feeding.

i cried. sian anak aku dah macam anak burung tapi susu nya tak keluar juga.

thanks to mama, she helped a lot. she massaged my breasts to stimulate milk flow. applying ice pack, kobis pun ada hah. menangis jugak bila ditekan-dipicit buah nya. sakit!

alhamdulillah, two days after we made it through. i cried ... happily. heh memang luar biasa. perasaan yang aku tunggu-tunggu tiba juga. sobs.



memang betul la kata orang, ibu lepas bersalin dalam pantang ni fragile amat. menangis saja la kerjanya * aku lah, orang lain aku kurang pasti *

entah apa-apa.

i normally breastfeed him every two hours. i have started pumping too since 2 months ago. way to go mammy! thanks to dak cit for this Spectra 3. muah :)

if you ask me, personally i would recommend it. :D

note : thank you arin! you save the day. * mak kan tak sabar * heh.

well, i routinely tuck him to bed at 10 p.m., morning bath at 10 a.m, naps an hour or two or more heh in the afternoon.

if the nap works out or whenever he feels like it. *if not, i let him jog and swim ha ha ha* then, evening bath at 6 p.m. nursing too accordingly without fail.

bath time, bath time!

he's really loving it!

believe me, all these routines stuff really work. * not sure to the rest though * i managed to settle everything in a month after giving birth to him.

alhamdulillah. sekali lagi, harap berpanjangan la insyallah.

we usually have a good nap and sometime a bad nap. * more to good ones * good boy. my baby, he is a night sleeper. mudah-mudahan berkekalan rutin ni.

just that, he wakes up twice at night * lain-lain aku yang kacau * for diaper changing, for nursing. then he will go to bed soon after without hassle.

sometimes, i let him sleep a bit longer between feeding. * kalau kesian, if tidak menjadi pulak tido dia tuh heh *

Sebulan pertama dulu, setiap dua jam aku kene kejutkan dia yang tido lena gile sampai tak sedar apa-apa. tak nak bangun ok.

* macam susah nak kejut je tu kemudian hari * ngee :p. yup it sounds like abah. mane lagi kuah nak pergi kalau tak tumpah kat nasi.

he he

about expressed milk bottle feeding - , i have taught him to bottle feed earlier when he was about 2 weeks old. he catched on quite good.

people often said to me, better teach them early so that at the end of the day, *when you have to start working*, i will not have to face problem switching from breastfeeding to bottle feeding.

other than that, i don't have to worry to look for baby's room to feed him. * paham-paham saja la kat negara kita ni kekurangan tempat untuk ibu menyusu anak *

i love subang parade's - mother's room yang sangat bersih dan menenangkan!

takkan nak mengkopek sesuka hati khan. * kalau terbuka takpe juga kaum2 adam tu ni tidak, pantang tebojol nak tengok ajer cit! *

swimming in public pun salah satu contoh. boleh blahhhhhh! entah apa-apa lah. * teringat pulak vista pinggiran *

sekarang nak swimming ko sue? * tengok lemak terkuar-kuar * ok, i passsssss ha ha.

ok meleret.

my baby is such a dearie.

thank you god, for giving us such joy. * walaupun mengader juga, tapi tak banyak kerenah.

now, i have other things to worry about !  * sigh *

good nite everyone, sleep tight.

ps : don't give up. it does not mean we fail. it means that we will have to take extra effort and patience to make it work. Insyaallah.

cold feet ...

heylo...

ok, let's cut the story short this time around, shall we? ^_^

so we went to see aunty fairuz, had my ultrasound, baby's head had engaged but my placenta was still at 2...

... she found out baby's heart rate slowing down, less baby movement, went for ctg, she told us it wasn't a good sign...

... i was admitted right away, nurse came by with a razor ha ha, dak cit ketawakan aku, then i got screwed undergone c-section and that was it. ta daa.

what is it and why? cerita nya lebih kurang begini, hmm close enough. * sama apa yang aku lalui di sana *.






tentang wasiat tu, bukan rekaan. kisah benar. he he. lagipun dah bincang dengan dak cit sebelum tu lagi.

u know, possibilities, :D

dulu ...

choochet : nanti kalau jadi apa-apa, yer la siapa tahu orang bersalin ni boleh mati tau. ingat apa? jangan main-main. dah la sue macam ni yang.

dak cit : ...

choochet : kalau la dokte soh pilih nanti, sue ke baby ke...dia nak selamatkan siapa?

dak cit : dia laa ...

choochet : yer la tuh dan dan ...

setiap bulan dok tanya sebelum tidur hehe. saja nak dengar jawapan dia. lama-lama, tak jawab apa pun lepas dengar jawapan dia.

sebab ... sebab tu ada wasiat tu. T_T * dah dah dah *

ee time tu sempat call jolie je suruh dia beritahu satu dunia sebab aku kan tak dapat dihubungi. maxis kan maxis!!!

choochet : weh aku nak bersalin dah ni, ceaserian. hah dah tak sempat sempat la nak cakap apa * sebok ni on the way nak gi OT * ha haha

epy : ...

*lupe la die ckp ape, sebab die tercengang kot. aku kan sepatutnya due 8/10. *

/me macam mana pulak aku boleh nampak ni?

sebenarnya daripada waktu bersiap ke operation room lagi aku dah pucat-pucat. yer laa menakutkan lah. eee sejuk habis badan-badan.

so dalam bilik operation tuh, semua perempuan. tukang bius seorang, pembantu dia. aunty fairuz of course la seorang dan pembantu dia 2 orang.

* benda pertama yang aku nampak lampu tu humaih beso * he he

eeeeeeeeee takot!

dr. bius : saya nak beri suntikan epidural ya sue. saya akan cucuk di tulang belakang. aa duduk sini.

ok sue nak separuh sedar ke nak tidur nanti?

mangsa : tak tau * rasa macam nak mati dah *

dr. bius : separuh la la yer. boleh tengok babyyyy ...

mangsa :* cam suka jer dia *

tau tak macam mana? dalam keadaan duduk, then bend down sikit badan. seriau giler aku tanye la cucuk sambil duduk ke. ee sakit.

pastu semua dok peringatkan, sakit bersalin lagiiii sakittttttttttt sue. aaa ni nasib baik la ni ...

tah hape hape la die buat kat belakang aku tu dalam hati aku cakap. ee lame betul.

huks. dia tengah susun peralatan dia macam orang bersihkan senapang2 nak pi perang. dia ukur sikit.

tertunggu-tunggu aku rasa sakit kene cucuk tu. tak cucuk lagi. aku dah bunyik lebih-lebih.

dr. bius: lembot kan badan. jangan keraskan sue. saya tau sue takut. relax. tak cucuk lagi ni.

mangsa : sakittt *degil * /me bukan pekak tapi takot ha ha

dr. bius : saya tak boleh buat kalau sue tak bantu. sekali lagi ...

sekali lagi degil. pembantu dia, ambilkan bantal letakkan kat perut then dia pegangkan tangan. * nah merasa la ko sape soh pegang tangan aku kan. *

sakit. mane tak nya cucuk betul-betul kat spinal cord tuh. terasa macam kena current sikit. terasa cecair tu masuk. lama pulak tu proses nya 5-10 minit. tsk.

berbaring la kat situ. then, tetiba je kebas tu datang sikit-sikit * macam menyerap * dari tapak kaki naik ke pinggang. tak rasa apa dah.

tetibe rasa loya la apa la datang. ada rasa mengantuk pulak tu. kate separuh sedar? he he.

note : ju kalau ju rase apa-apa nanti bitau je dorang... sue semua benda sue cakap.

perkara terakhir yang aku rasa ialah...mereka mengangkangkan kakiku nak masukkan tiub tu la catheral tube tu * tah eje btol ke tak ni *

tak ada la nanti, sibuk orang dok operate time tu la nak pee la nak tu la. :). * baru tau setelah sedar. he he. *

dalam separuh sedar tu pun dok takut lagi. semua ni berlaku sepantas kilat. setengah jam mungkin kurang. mak je cite cam lama betul.

sebelum incision dibuat, * tak rasa tapi boleh agak sebab aunty fairuz baca doa dulu *

aku tertunggu-tunggu rasa sakit kene cut tu. tapi tak ada. puas la aku berdoa supaya semuanya berjalan lancar.

note : ju, jangan takut jue.

rasa? tak rasa apa-apa. sakit? tak rasa sakit. dengar macam ada orang dabbing. tepuk-tepuk perut macam tu, tp slowly. pastu dengar diorang bersembang. dah kata nak raya.

tanya orang ni buat kuih ke tidak. orang ni buat cheese cake. pastu dengar diorang ketawa-ketawa. tanya balik kampung ke tak. cerita sal baju raya anak-anak.

sabar je lah. tu aku cakap dorang ni happy tau. he he.

kemudian, aku terdengar aunty cakap leher adam haris terbelit tali pusat. no wonder! :((. poor baby. sekarang aku paham, kenapa.

dari awal sampai ke sudah diduga ye?

rasa nak tidur jer. tapi aku gigihkan jugak buka mata. sebab nak tengok adam haris. :)). macam mana rupa dia. ikut sapa. :p

bila ni? bila ni? perasaan menunggu tu...bayangkan menunggu tangisan dia?
lama jer rasa.

masa yang sama perasaan janggal ada juga.

sebab i didn't how to react, what to expect ... * the feeling * that 'one' feeling - between mother and her baby

masa yang ditunggu-tunggu tiba juga, suara adam haris la! tapi kejap pulak tangisan dia. ke aku yg dah mamai?.

dengar suara aunty ...

aunty fairuz : *dari panel kat perot aku * sue nak tengok takkkk siapa...tu diaaaaaaaaa nampak tak? nampak ke tak? boy ke girl ?

*asal nak nanges pulak aku neh. *

recalling ma...masih terpahat di hati. sobs.

mamy haris : boy * sambil tersenyum terkejut sebab macam anak orang lain je. huhu. rasa tak percaya!
aunty : ikut sapa ni sue ...
mamy haris : thank you so much aunty

so there he was, 2.8kg - 51cm ^_^ muhammad adam haris bin hasnizam was born on Friday, Sept 18, 09 at 1.09pm @ DEMC, shah alam.

alhamdulillah, sesungguhnya, aku bersyukur dengan kurnianNya.

few secs later, nurse brought haris closely for me to see him , i gave him my very first kiss :(((((. mamy's kiss.

it was so fast, she took him away. huhu. kejap sangat. i barely moved. T_T

sebabkan semuanya berlaku sepantas kilat, dak cit nih lambat tauuuuu masok OR.

dia baru sibuk-sibuk nak masuk aunty cakap, dah keluar dah pun baby. grrr slalu macam tu! you weren't there !


20 mins old - spending thee first moment with abah ...

there day you were born, our worlds changed. thank you haris for the joy you give.

lots of love & butterfly kisses,

mamy & abah

*sobbing* baik lah. mari tido sekarang. esok nak pergi kenduri nanti mata lebam.
nunite xo!
ps: having a baby changes everything ...